I’ve had a tough week emotionally this week. My emotions have been all over the place, but mainly in the downwards directions. I blame the constant fog, cold damp weather and lack of sunlight. I’ve beaten myself up for having problems deciphering German grammar and not being as good speaking German as some of my classmates. I’ve gotten all depressed because for some reason I feel isolated here, even though I know I have a wonderful circle of friends. I’ve gotten angry at myself for putting on weight, even though I’ve started eating better and started running again and have lost 2.5kg in the last 2 weeks. All in all, it’s been one crap week and I’ll be glad to see it end.
I know that when I get like this, I need to go and do things to cheer myself up. Tomorrow I’ll be hitting the Christmas markets to shop for Christmas gifts for my family and to indulge in Schmalzkuchen and Glühwein and tomorrow night I’ll be treated to a home-cooked Indian meal by my Indian classmate and will get a chance to get to know some of my classmates better. Then on Sunday, I’ll be having brunch with a dear friend who I haven’t seen for a couple of weeks. I’ve also just brought a book that explains German grammar in English and will be diving into that as soon as it arrives. I know things will get better and this horrible dark feeling won’t last forever, but I really hate these low feeling weeks.